I have to turn in my testimony (it was supposed to be 500 words or LESS--oops) with my application for the missions trip I will be going on in July! I am so excited words CANNOT express!!! Praise the Lord-- I have wanted to do this for SO long!
So thankful for what God has done/is doing for me. So excited to see how He will use me!
I was extremely blessed throughout my childhood and teenage years to have a mother who strongly believed in and relied on Christ. She made certain my older sister and I attended the small, southern Baptist church where we were members. When I was fifteen I went to a Centrifuge camp in Panama City, and I was amazed at how the Lord moved and led me. I remember praying a prayer with my youth minister in the moonlight on the beach one night, and I strongly believed in what I was saying. Unfortunately in the years that passed after that I never saw an extreme change in my behavior. I certainly had a conscience, and I always veered toward what I knew was right, but something always seemed to be missing.
In the summer of 2010 I had one major life change after another. I had ended a very unhealthy three-year long relationship, and I had finished the Master’s program to become a teacher. I struggled with both of these things all summer long. I thought I would never get married and I would never have the teaching job I dreamed of. That summer I began to draw closer to God—I started keeping a prayer Journal and dove into the study Bible my mom had gotten me for graduation. Little did I know—God had much greater plans than I could have imagined.
In the middle of the summer I was introduced to “Mr. Right” after church. On July 4, 2010, I hung out with him for the first time, and we quickly became inseparable. It seemed that God had answered my prayers (and my moms), and I was set. God placed him in my life at JUST the right time. Ben comes from a very Christ-centered family. I quickly began to realize that the “relationship” I had with Christ was not complete. Over the next couple of months I could feel myself being PULLED by God. There were so many directions He wanted me to go. I had the desire to join a church, get involved, travel the world on mission trips, and become a part of children’s lives in the church. How could I begin any of this while living the life I was at this point? God was calling me, and sadly I was still running in the opposite direction.
After months of battling with all of the emotions, Ben and I began attending Cross Church Fayetteville as soon as it opened. On January 30, 2011, I listened to the sermon and wept. We walked to the truck afterwards and I could feel my heart pounding. I told Ben I was terrified of what would happen if I had died that day—and I was. I was disgusted by thinking of the life I was living. I had so many uncertainties. Those uncertainties made me see that the prayer I prayed when I was 15 years old would not get me into the Lord’s kingdom when I passed from this earth. We drove to his parents, and after speaking with his dad and explaining how convicted I had felt—Ben, both of his parents, and I got down on our knees in their living room, and I prayed like I have never prayed before. I asked the Lord to take everything-the sin that has filled my life and all of the burdens—to rescue me and save me. I put every bit of my faith in Him that day.
The Lord has completely transformed my life. I know that I will never be perfect, but each day I wake up I know I have so much to be thankful for. I know that God has a purpose for my life, that I was made through Him and saved through Him. Without Him and His grace—I am nothing. I am in awe of how my attitude towards life and its circumstances has changed.
I joined Cross Church, was baptized, and have been volunteering with Cross Kidz on Wednesday nights and Sunday mornings. I am excited to experience my first mission trip with a team from church-this has been my passion for so long and I cannot wait to see where the Lord will take me and how He will use me.