As I lay here in bed (literally thanking Jesus for a snow day because I was going to have to take another sick day) I am worshipping my Savior, my Redeemer, my Healer, my Rock. The past 7 days (really the past 2 1/2 weeks but the past 7 days were worse) have been so trying. I have literally broken down every single day. I have so many supportive people in my life, and I know they were all sent straight from Jesus to build me up. I have said numerous times, "I hate to complain because I know there is always someone who has it worse." While I've always believed that, it has been made so obvious since yesterday.
My body is so sore and so sick of throwing up that all I've done is cry and have pity party after pity party, and Ben has allowed me to do that. As I was telling my sister yesterday about what's been going on, she told me about one of her good friends that is 11 weeks pregnant who just found out her baby passed away, and has now been waiting days to "pass" the baby. The story has much more to it, but all I can think is how mortifying and heartbreaking it would be to give birth to such a tiny baby especially knowing you'd never get to see it grow when you've already developed so much love for it. So yes, there is always someone who has it worse. As I thought about that, and another family I know having a very difficult pregnancy (after already miscarrying last year), and then think of friends who so badly want to be pregnant I realized it is time for me to pour out thanksgiving to my Jesus. I know I am so blessed to be carrying a healthy baby (and to be feeling her move as I type), and these trials will soon pass.
When I had to leave school at lunch yesterday, my friend, Meredith sent me this:
"So be TRULY GLAD. There is wonderful JOY ahead. Even though you have to endure many trials for a little while." -1 Peter 1:6
It was so encouraging that this morning I decided to read through 1 Peter. Though I've read bits and pieces of it before, I decided to read it in its entirety. This book of the Bible is full of such sweet promises and hope. From talking about the joy Jesus brings, to the crown of glory, to His promise of steadfastness and strength, all the way to telling us He will lift us up when the rest of the world looks down upon us, this short book is so comforting.
Jesus placed these words and promises in front of my eyes just when I needed them most.
And more encouraging words are found in my favorite song "I Will Exalt You" by Bethel Music & Amanda Cook
(you should probably YouTube it asap)
Your presence is all I need
It's all I want, all I seek
Without it, without it there's no meaning
Your presence is the air I breathe
The song I sing, the love I need
Without it, without it I'm not living
I will exalt You, Lord, I will exalt You, Lord
There is no one like You God
I will exalt You, Lord, I will exalt You, Lord
No other name be lifted high
There will be no one like You
And no one beside You
You alone are worthy of all praise
There will be no one like You
And no one beside You
You alone are worthy of all praise
Thursday, January 9, 2014
Sunday, January 5, 2014
Jeremiah 32:17 33 weeks!!!
LONGEST POST IN HISTORY ;)
I am 33 weeks pregnant today, and I think it should be known that there is a mild blizzard outside. Which, I am thankful for because honestly, I've had no desire to leave the house lately!
My belly has gotten SUPER large and tight. Thankfully, for now, my belly button is still tucked in! ;) My maternity pants are now very uncomfortable on my belly. :0
Millie is very mobile these days (if it's possible to be "mobile" in such a tiny confined space).
Mommy has gone a LITTLE overboard buying clothes for Millie :/....seriously... she doesn't need another article of clothing for a very very long time, but there are some things I just can't resist--- like those cute summer bubble rompers..ohhhh be still my heart. Can't wait for her chunky legs to fill them out!!! It would probably be a good idea for me to delete my ETSY account for a month or two....Dave Ramsey would probably appreciate that.
Her nursery is just about complete! There are a few minor additions before her arrival, but I'm pleased with how it all turned out!! Our friend Dave is making a small side table to put by the chair (to hold a lamp) and I ordered tall wire lined bins to go in the bottom of the closet for toys, etc. Also, ignore the cable--it is being removed next week ;) Here are a few pics
Ben's mom is making a blanket and pillow to match the bedding! :))
Since right before Christmas I have had the WORST acid reflux-- so bad that I throw up (everything I eat) and dry heave. It is completely miserable. The Sunday before Christmas we went to Mtn. Home for Ben's great grandma's 100th birthday. I already get super care sick, but being on those crazy winding roads combined with the acid reflux was a complete nightmare! We pulled over three times.
After her "party" (which was so cute) we drove to Jonesboro to be with my family. I had such a good time hanging out with my nephews and enjoying them before Millie is here to take up my attention! :) The next couple of days were fine, but we went over to my sister's on Christmas morning to watch the boys open their gifts and I was pretty much hanging over the toilet the whole time! Blahhhhhh
Since then, there have been a few days I've gone without throwing up (though I don't remember them) but mostly it feels like I spend a majority of every day throwing up... SOOOO FUN, RIGHT?! HA... I am well aware no one really wants to read this, but I'm hoping if I type it out I can go back and relive it when I completely lose my mind and think I need another child in a year and half..PAH..
New Year's Eve was just a puking rally! I threw up in the bathtub (who does that???)... then the sink and then finally made it to the toilet. So much throw up.... I don't know how, but Ben helped clean it all up (He's a saint, isn't he???!!). Also, we had to make up a snow day on Friday and it was a pretty rough morning, too. YIPPPEEEEE...
I had quite the break down this morning (literally laying in a ball in the bathroom floor crying). I so want to be enjoying this pregnancy and of course there are plenty of happy moments, but this puking thing is for the birds and I CANNOT WAIT for that part to be OVER!!!
nowwwwww that I'm through with all that let's get some POSITIVE THINGS UP IN THIS POST!!!
Ben and I found out at our 20 week doctor's appointment (when they did the first ultrasound there) that Millie had a choroid plexus cyst on her brain. The doctor assured us that since this was the only "down syndrome indicator" out of 5 that showed up she would be fine. He said it is something that usually "fixes itself" by at least 26 weeks. He said we would do a follow-up ultrasound at 32 weeks to make sure it was gone. Leaving the doctor that day I had the weirdest sense of peace because when he said the words "fixes itself" all I could think was.... the Lord will heal it! For the most part, I didn't even think about it! Ben and I decided not to tell anyone (yet) because we weren't worried and didn't want anyone else to worry either. I promised myself I wouldn't "google" or webMD or anything because we both agreed if we prayed about this she was going to be just fine! A few weeks later, we did end up telling our moms.... we urged them not to look it up, too ;). I told Dawn and at week 26 when I went for her to do an ultrasound she didn't see it. Our 32 week appointment and ultra sound was scheduled for Jan 2. That morning I woke up praying for Millie and praying for the outcome of the scan. I asked the Lord to prepare us for whatever the doctor had to say, but I honestly felt as though I already knew the outcome! I found this verse: " Ah, Lord God! It is you who have made the heavens and the earth by Your great power and by Your outstretched arm! Nothing is too hard for You!" --Jeremiah 32:17
THE CYST WAS GONE!!!!! Hallelujah!!!! So thankful! The Lord has been carrying us through this pregnancy and has kept Millie so unbelievably healthy!!!
I will admit I'm getting a little impatient! 7 more weeks seems like such a lifetime (I'm aware she could be earlier or later). I'm starting to get a little "anxious" about childbirth...but I usually just try to veer my thoughts in another direction ;).
I am trying to enjoy this time I have left with my husband as just a small family of two, but it is definitely hard when there's such a MAJOR life change coming our way! We are so ready to meet Miss Millie.
I'll end with all of the precious gifts Millie was spoiled with for Christmas! Ha
*My mom got her Baby Book and the most adorable lamb play/sleep mat:
*Ben's parents got her a Bible with her name, some monogrammed goodies, clothes, and book about how much Jesus loves her with their voices recorded reading it :))
*The Speers got her an inch worm rocker (soooo cute.. it's up in the pictures of the nursery), some pjs and a picture frame for the nursery!
*The Ceolas got her monogrammed burp cloths and the most precious and comfortable monogrammed blanket (it's also in the pictures of the nursery on the chair)
*Emily & Grant gave her an awesome leopard blanket and small blanky---mommy loves some leopard
Ready for Millie to be here to roll around and play with her cousin Brennan!
I am 33 weeks pregnant today, and I think it should be known that there is a mild blizzard outside. Which, I am thankful for because honestly, I've had no desire to leave the house lately!
My belly has gotten SUPER large and tight. Thankfully, for now, my belly button is still tucked in! ;) My maternity pants are now very uncomfortable on my belly. :0
Millie is very mobile these days (if it's possible to be "mobile" in such a tiny confined space).
Mommy has gone a LITTLE overboard buying clothes for Millie :/....seriously... she doesn't need another article of clothing for a very very long time, but there are some things I just can't resist--- like those cute summer bubble rompers..ohhhh be still my heart. Can't wait for her chunky legs to fill them out!!! It would probably be a good idea for me to delete my ETSY account for a month or two....Dave Ramsey would probably appreciate that.
Her nursery is just about complete! There are a few minor additions before her arrival, but I'm pleased with how it all turned out!! Our friend Dave is making a small side table to put by the chair (to hold a lamp) and I ordered tall wire lined bins to go in the bottom of the closet for toys, etc. Also, ignore the cable--it is being removed next week ;) Here are a few pics
Since right before Christmas I have had the WORST acid reflux-- so bad that I throw up (everything I eat) and dry heave. It is completely miserable. The Sunday before Christmas we went to Mtn. Home for Ben's great grandma's 100th birthday. I already get super care sick, but being on those crazy winding roads combined with the acid reflux was a complete nightmare! We pulled over three times.
After her "party" (which was so cute) we drove to Jonesboro to be with my family. I had such a good time hanging out with my nephews and enjoying them before Millie is here to take up my attention! :) The next couple of days were fine, but we went over to my sister's on Christmas morning to watch the boys open their gifts and I was pretty much hanging over the toilet the whole time! Blahhhhhh
Since then, there have been a few days I've gone without throwing up (though I don't remember them) but mostly it feels like I spend a majority of every day throwing up... SOOOO FUN, RIGHT?! HA... I am well aware no one really wants to read this, but I'm hoping if I type it out I can go back and relive it when I completely lose my mind and think I need another child in a year and half..PAH..
New Year's Eve was just a puking rally! I threw up in the bathtub (who does that???)... then the sink and then finally made it to the toilet. So much throw up.... I don't know how, but Ben helped clean it all up (He's a saint, isn't he???!!). Also, we had to make up a snow day on Friday and it was a pretty rough morning, too. YIPPPEEEEE...
I had quite the break down this morning (literally laying in a ball in the bathroom floor crying). I so want to be enjoying this pregnancy and of course there are plenty of happy moments, but this puking thing is for the birds and I CANNOT WAIT for that part to be OVER!!!
nowwwwww that I'm through with all that let's get some POSITIVE THINGS UP IN THIS POST!!!
Ben and I found out at our 20 week doctor's appointment (when they did the first ultrasound there) that Millie had a choroid plexus cyst on her brain. The doctor assured us that since this was the only "down syndrome indicator" out of 5 that showed up she would be fine. He said it is something that usually "fixes itself" by at least 26 weeks. He said we would do a follow-up ultrasound at 32 weeks to make sure it was gone. Leaving the doctor that day I had the weirdest sense of peace because when he said the words "fixes itself" all I could think was.... the Lord will heal it! For the most part, I didn't even think about it! Ben and I decided not to tell anyone (yet) because we weren't worried and didn't want anyone else to worry either. I promised myself I wouldn't "google" or webMD or anything because we both agreed if we prayed about this she was going to be just fine! A few weeks later, we did end up telling our moms.... we urged them not to look it up, too ;). I told Dawn and at week 26 when I went for her to do an ultrasound she didn't see it. Our 32 week appointment and ultra sound was scheduled for Jan 2. That morning I woke up praying for Millie and praying for the outcome of the scan. I asked the Lord to prepare us for whatever the doctor had to say, but I honestly felt as though I already knew the outcome! I found this verse: " Ah, Lord God! It is you who have made the heavens and the earth by Your great power and by Your outstretched arm! Nothing is too hard for You!" --Jeremiah 32:17
THE CYST WAS GONE!!!!! Hallelujah!!!! So thankful! The Lord has been carrying us through this pregnancy and has kept Millie so unbelievably healthy!!!
I will admit I'm getting a little impatient! 7 more weeks seems like such a lifetime (I'm aware she could be earlier or later). I'm starting to get a little "anxious" about childbirth...but I usually just try to veer my thoughts in another direction ;).
I am trying to enjoy this time I have left with my husband as just a small family of two, but it is definitely hard when there's such a MAJOR life change coming our way! We are so ready to meet Miss Millie.
I'll end with all of the precious gifts Millie was spoiled with for Christmas! Ha
*My mom got her Baby Book and the most adorable lamb play/sleep mat:
*Ben's parents got her a Bible with her name, some monogrammed goodies, clothes, and book about how much Jesus loves her with their voices recorded reading it :))
*The Speers got her an inch worm rocker (soooo cute.. it's up in the pictures of the nursery), some pjs and a picture frame for the nursery!
*The Ceolas got her monogrammed burp cloths and the most precious and comfortable monogrammed blanket (it's also in the pictures of the nursery on the chair)
*Emily & Grant gave her an awesome leopard blanket and small blanky---mommy loves some leopard
Ready for Millie to be here to roll around and play with her cousin Brennan!
Saturday, December 21, 2013
bumpity bump bump bump... 31 weeks tomorrow
First off, let me say HALLELUJAH for (almost) 2 weeks off of work to wear sweats/pjs and slippers 24/7!! I've never been so excited to do NOTHING in my life!
We are etching our way to being SO close to meeting Miss Millie... although, I was eating lunch with Tinka and Brook (my MIL & SIL) yesterday and there was guy talking about his wife being 42 weeks pregnant... WHAAAAAT... ah that was discouraging haha!
I am so anxious to her! I can wait to see whose eyes, and hair, and nose, and mouth she has..... What her smile looks like, to stare in amazement at her tiny feet (that my favorite part of a baby body) and hands.... I can't wait to see Ben hold her (and probably weep over her) and for our families to meet her. I can't wait to rock her and feed her.... to bring her home and be her MOMMY... I'M GOING TO BE A MOM!!! I think I still forget that this is about to happen and that I'm PREGNANT.
BUT I am quickly reminded when I have days like I did during the 30 week period of time. What a ROUGH week it was... but we made it through. I'll just say anything you read that says "may happen to some expecting moms, but not all" HAS happened to me... *knock on wood*.
My mom keeps saying "it's all just part of it", which I know is very true and none of it will cross my mind once Millie is here, but mom, it is kind of hard to listen to that from someone who had very normal/smooth pregnancies :).... and I don't mean mine has been HARD... but a little more unpleasant/uncomfortable at times than others :0
Praise Jesus that Millie is healthy & growing!! When Dawn scanned me last, she was about 3.5 pounds. It is amazing to look at the pictures from our first ultrasound to the most recent one-- such a miracle of life!
I am excited to get to spend Christmas at my grandparents' this year & with my family! I love watching the boys on Christmas morning open their gifts....and this year, Pete AND Brody will get to be excited since Brody is old enough to get into things! I am NOT looking forward to the drive there but I'm just making sure I wear especially comfortable clothes and take lots of pillows---it is really hard for me to sit up right for long periods of time--- big boobs + big belly + acid reflux/heart burn makes for one pissy mommy..ha!
After we do Christmas morning with my family we get to come back home and have Christmas celebration with the Willards!!! It's going to be such a fun holiday with our niece and nephews... can't wait for Millie to join in on the action! ;)
We are etching our way to being SO close to meeting Miss Millie... although, I was eating lunch with Tinka and Brook (my MIL & SIL) yesterday and there was guy talking about his wife being 42 weeks pregnant... WHAAAAAT... ah that was discouraging haha!
I am so anxious to her! I can wait to see whose eyes, and hair, and nose, and mouth she has..... What her smile looks like, to stare in amazement at her tiny feet (that my favorite part of a baby body) and hands.... I can't wait to see Ben hold her (and probably weep over her) and for our families to meet her. I can't wait to rock her and feed her.... to bring her home and be her MOMMY... I'M GOING TO BE A MOM!!! I think I still forget that this is about to happen and that I'm PREGNANT.
BUT I am quickly reminded when I have days like I did during the 30 week period of time. What a ROUGH week it was... but we made it through. I'll just say anything you read that says "may happen to some expecting moms, but not all" HAS happened to me... *knock on wood*.
My mom keeps saying "it's all just part of it", which I know is very true and none of it will cross my mind once Millie is here, but mom, it is kind of hard to listen to that from someone who had very normal/smooth pregnancies :).... and I don't mean mine has been HARD... but a little more unpleasant/uncomfortable at times than others :0
Praise Jesus that Millie is healthy & growing!! When Dawn scanned me last, she was about 3.5 pounds. It is amazing to look at the pictures from our first ultrasound to the most recent one-- such a miracle of life!
I am excited to get to spend Christmas at my grandparents' this year & with my family! I love watching the boys on Christmas morning open their gifts....and this year, Pete AND Brody will get to be excited since Brody is old enough to get into things! I am NOT looking forward to the drive there but I'm just making sure I wear especially comfortable clothes and take lots of pillows---it is really hard for me to sit up right for long periods of time--- big boobs + big belly + acid reflux/heart burn makes for one pissy mommy..ha!
After we do Christmas morning with my family we get to come back home and have Christmas celebration with the Willards!!! It's going to be such a fun holiday with our niece and nephews... can't wait for Millie to join in on the action! ;)
Sunday, December 8, 2013
snow day #234810845/ 29 weeks preggers
Wow--I haven't updated in a while. Sorry, Millie.. I know you will be so devastated when you turn 18 and I show you this blog and you realize how much of a slacker I have been. ha..
Today I am 29 WEEKS PREGNANT.. absolutely CANNOT believe it! SO many changes have happened to my body the past three weeks.
I will start on a high note-- you can definitely tell I'm pregnant (for some that may not always be a high note and this belly is something that has taken me a while to accept, but seeing as for the past six months all I've heard is "Jamie, are you sure you're pregnant?"--I'm definitely considering this a plus). Another positive is that Millie is MOVING LIKE CRAZY and I love it. It is a strange thing to see my bowling ball of a belly shift from one side to the other-- I count it a blessing. She is most mobile when I'm in the bathtub (probably because I get the water way too hot....good thing I have a rubber ducky to judge the temp when Millie gets here). Another plus of being 29 weeks pregnant is that I am in the THIRD trimester meaning she is SO close to being here! Of course, the main high note is that the doctor says Millie is measuring right on time and looks to be healthy (what a praise), and that I'm also healthy... even though I've gained 18 pounds... whooooopsie! So thankful every day that the Lord is allowing me to be a mommy to this precious baby girl!
Now for the rough parts... where to begin?! I promise not to make this a pregnancy bashing session... well not on purpose at least.
Two weeks ago I went to visit my family since I was off for the week of Thanksgiving. I wanted to be able to spend some extra time with everyone (since there isn't going to be much one on one time with family once Mills is here!). I had such a fantastic time, and even got to squeeze in a fun day date with Pete Speer. Brody melted my heart because he was attached to my belly (kept laying is head on it, kissing it, and saying "awwww") the whole time.
Ben wasn't able to go to Jonesboro with me because he had to work Monday and Tuesday. I had already been feeling quite "uncomfortable" the week before... I woke up and headed home around 8:30. I hadn't even made it to Searcy yet... well let me rephrase that.. I was two miles from the first Searcy exit when I started dripping sweat, my vision blurred, and I knew I was about to vom everywhere. I pulled over--on the side of the interstate-- went around the car and threw up.. LOTS. somehow I got back in the car and went to the nearest gas station to continue this puking rally. I finally felt enough nerve to continue the drive and made it about 15 miles. Within 45 minutes I pulled over a total of 6 times. The last time (I was finally on a four lane highway instead of interestate) I turned into a cattle crossing, rolled down my window, laid my seat back, and cried. It was so awful!!!
A few other things that haven't been so fun include the random acid reflux that usually results in throwing up... my boobs are GINORMOUS, and I have to use the bathroom every second of every day.. ha... but really. I have also gotten REALLY tired of people saying "oh you just wait".... I am fully aware it will probably get much worse before Millie makes her arrival, but right now I'm struggling and that definitely does NOT help! :)
Okay okay enough of that, but seriously as I've said before.... this is what they should tell jr. high and high schoolers in family living classes....
We have gotten quite a bit done in the nursery! We ordered the glider, bedding should arrive by Tuesday (if the snow and ice ever clear), ben built shelves in the closet, we got super cute wire baskets to put in the closet for half price on Black Friday (online.. no I did not venture out to a store), I stained the bookshelf and covered the backing to match the bedding, we got the picture hung above the changing table, her name is finished and hanging above the crib, and curtains have been ordered. WHEW... only a few more things to make it all complete!!!! I am having so much fun!
I have been able to do a few fun craft projects since we didn't have school on Thursday and Friday due to all the ice and snow. As I'm typing this, I just got the call that there's no school tomorrow (arghhhhh), so I'm thinking I need to go to stock up at JoAnn to have things to occupy my time. Perhaps, I should begin the nesting stage and start cleaning out this house, though???
Here are a few picture updates of our lives lately :)
Today I am 29 WEEKS PREGNANT.. absolutely CANNOT believe it! SO many changes have happened to my body the past three weeks.
I will start on a high note-- you can definitely tell I'm pregnant (for some that may not always be a high note and this belly is something that has taken me a while to accept, but seeing as for the past six months all I've heard is "Jamie, are you sure you're pregnant?"--I'm definitely considering this a plus). Another positive is that Millie is MOVING LIKE CRAZY and I love it. It is a strange thing to see my bowling ball of a belly shift from one side to the other-- I count it a blessing. She is most mobile when I'm in the bathtub (probably because I get the water way too hot....good thing I have a rubber ducky to judge the temp when Millie gets here). Another plus of being 29 weeks pregnant is that I am in the THIRD trimester meaning she is SO close to being here! Of course, the main high note is that the doctor says Millie is measuring right on time and looks to be healthy (what a praise), and that I'm also healthy... even though I've gained 18 pounds... whooooopsie! So thankful every day that the Lord is allowing me to be a mommy to this precious baby girl!
Now for the rough parts... where to begin?! I promise not to make this a pregnancy bashing session... well not on purpose at least.
Two weeks ago I went to visit my family since I was off for the week of Thanksgiving. I wanted to be able to spend some extra time with everyone (since there isn't going to be much one on one time with family once Mills is here!). I had such a fantastic time, and even got to squeeze in a fun day date with Pete Speer. Brody melted my heart because he was attached to my belly (kept laying is head on it, kissing it, and saying "awwww") the whole time.
Ben wasn't able to go to Jonesboro with me because he had to work Monday and Tuesday. I had already been feeling quite "uncomfortable" the week before... I woke up and headed home around 8:30. I hadn't even made it to Searcy yet... well let me rephrase that.. I was two miles from the first Searcy exit when I started dripping sweat, my vision blurred, and I knew I was about to vom everywhere. I pulled over--on the side of the interstate-- went around the car and threw up.. LOTS. somehow I got back in the car and went to the nearest gas station to continue this puking rally. I finally felt enough nerve to continue the drive and made it about 15 miles. Within 45 minutes I pulled over a total of 6 times. The last time (I was finally on a four lane highway instead of interestate) I turned into a cattle crossing, rolled down my window, laid my seat back, and cried. It was so awful!!!
A few other things that haven't been so fun include the random acid reflux that usually results in throwing up... my boobs are GINORMOUS, and I have to use the bathroom every second of every day.. ha... but really. I have also gotten REALLY tired of people saying "oh you just wait".... I am fully aware it will probably get much worse before Millie makes her arrival, but right now I'm struggling and that definitely does NOT help! :)
Okay okay enough of that, but seriously as I've said before.... this is what they should tell jr. high and high schoolers in family living classes....
We have gotten quite a bit done in the nursery! We ordered the glider, bedding should arrive by Tuesday (if the snow and ice ever clear), ben built shelves in the closet, we got super cute wire baskets to put in the closet for half price on Black Friday (online.. no I did not venture out to a store), I stained the bookshelf and covered the backing to match the bedding, we got the picture hung above the changing table, her name is finished and hanging above the crib, and curtains have been ordered. WHEW... only a few more things to make it all complete!!!! I am having so much fun!
I have been able to do a few fun craft projects since we didn't have school on Thursday and Friday due to all the ice and snow. As I'm typing this, I just got the call that there's no school tomorrow (arghhhhh), so I'm thinking I need to go to stock up at JoAnn to have things to occupy my time. Perhaps, I should begin the nesting stage and start cleaning out this house, though???
Here are a few picture updates of our lives lately :)
27 weeks
EmJay and I in the snow on Friday. Note: she hated it!
Ben and I got to take one more trip together before little Miss Millie arrives.. We went to Dallas for the Kari Jobe live recording at the Magestic
more... snow....
Millie at 26 Weeks
The Willards :)
Monday, October 21, 2013
21 weeks... DONE!
Millie has been ON THE MOVE!
I'm usually really tired when I get home from work (not like sleepy tired, but definitely ready to put on comfy clothes and hit the couch). This week I have been relaxing on the couch with the computer on my lap and listening to Kari Jobe. Around 4:15 each day Millie starts to wiggle-- A LOT! I'm hoping she will be as big of a Kari Jobe fan as I am :).
Ben finally felt Millie move last weekend. It was SO fun to watch his face. He doesn't quite think it is as neat as I do so I was a little disappointed in his reaction... then I realized, my experience with this baby is completely different than the one he is getting right now so, of course he isn't going to get as "into" all the little details as I am at this point. He has been very sweet this week and putting his hand on my belly to feel her and talk to her each day! I love it!
I'm in full maternity clothes wearing mode. It is insane how within one week my belly "blew up"! It's crazy to compare my 19 week picture with my 20 week!
I'm usually really tired when I get home from work (not like sleepy tired, but definitely ready to put on comfy clothes and hit the couch). This week I have been relaxing on the couch with the computer on my lap and listening to Kari Jobe. Around 4:15 each day Millie starts to wiggle-- A LOT! I'm hoping she will be as big of a Kari Jobe fan as I am :).
Ben finally felt Millie move last weekend. It was SO fun to watch his face. He doesn't quite think it is as neat as I do so I was a little disappointed in his reaction... then I realized, my experience with this baby is completely different than the one he is getting right now so, of course he isn't going to get as "into" all the little details as I am at this point. He has been very sweet this week and putting his hand on my belly to feel her and talk to her each day! I love it!
I'm in full maternity clothes wearing mode. It is insane how within one week my belly "blew up"! It's crazy to compare my 19 week picture with my 20 week!
At 21 weeks: I am unable to sleep comfortably (yes, already), wearing all maternity pants (leggings quite a bit--thank you Jesus for that invention), and feeling Millie move ALL of the time!!! I have gained 5 pounds... mostly in my FACE AND ARMS lol. It is disgusting how puffy my face is :( Ben says "Won't everything just get bigger?!" ha.. he sure knows how to console his wife and make her feel better!
Here I am yesterday 21 going on 22 weeks! :)
(my pants need ironed... I hate to iron...)
My family came to visit for the weekend. My sister and I bought my mom a black pug for her birthday (she has been very lonely since sweet zoe passed away a few years ago), and my sister got the boys an English bulldog so they came up to pick up the puppies! I was super busy all afternoon yesterday so I didn't have time to have the usual meltdown that I do when they leave. It definitely hit me this morning, though. Of course, I miss my mom and sister (and dad) so much, and it is really hard being away from them--especially being pregnant because they don't get to experience the little things with me that people who live near me are getting to.... but it is even harder knowing I have three nephews whose lives I don't get to be a big of a part of as I would like to be. Every time I see them I get so emotional because they change so much. Pete Speer is a mature Kindergartner---he has overcome mountains that I prayed he would for so long. I pray for him daily that his teachers and classmates would have the same love and patience for him that we do. He truly is the sweetest most kind-hearted little boy I know. Brody is a mess.. but the cutest mess you'll ever meet--SUCH A HAM. He and Pete are the best big brothers to Brennan (who is just a cute little chunk monster!!!) Brennan has changed so much since I saw him in the summer :(. Luckily, I get to see them again this weekend for Brody's birthday! I know it is going to be even harder once Millie is born and they don't get to see each other as much as I want. UGHHH... life surely isn't "fair" sometimes... So thankful to be their aunt, though!
Millie's room is painted!!! Thanks to my amazing husband who stayed up all night Thursday to get it finished before my family got here.... (we should've thought through the whole process more and not started in the middle of the week.... but I don't have a brain these days!)
We are waiting for her bedding to come in (should be in the middle of November) before painting or planning anything else for the nursery. :)
I'll end with a pic of my mom's dog... Miss Daisy .. she has my heart!!
I want her!!!
Sunday, October 6, 2013
Half Way There!
Ah! I can't believe tomorrow marks 20 weeks of walking through this life with a precious baby girl in my belly! This morning I was thinking back to those hard weeks when it was difficult to even get out of bed (praise the Lord that was during the summer). I remember a few times telling Ben I didn't know how people went through a pregnancy with other kids to take care of at the same time. Honestly, thinking back I can't really even remember what was so hard! Of course, I remember feeling nauseous 24-7 and that certain foods sounded awful, but I don't remember the feeling I had inside of me that was saying "I can never do this again!" because now it all seems like a small portion of this 20 week long blessing. Every single little feeling (good or bad) is completely worth getting to the point of pregnancy when you feel movement inside. Feeling Millie move makes all of this feel so real... I can't wait for Ben to be able to feel her move, too.
Seeing her on the "big screen" at the doctor makes it feel real, too. We went for our "20 week appointment" on Thursday and I will say--it never gets old seeing her precious profile or her tiny hands and feet. She already seems to have so much personality!
I'm not very consistent with this weekly picture thing, but I try to have Ben take one when I do remember! Here I am this morning... 19 going on 20 :)
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Seeing her on the "big screen" at the doctor makes it feel real, too. We went for our "20 week appointment" on Thursday and I will say--it never gets old seeing her precious profile or her tiny hands and feet. She already seems to have so much personality!
I'm not very consistent with this weekly picture thing, but I try to have Ben take one when I do remember! Here I am this morning... 19 going on 20 :)
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My bump isn't really what I think of when I think "baby bump", but I'm thankful to finally be showing (I know I may eat those words in a few weeks).
At our appointment Dr. Gorman said I am measuring small, but Millie is actually measuring right at her due date!! She weighs about 10 oz and is about 7 in long! CRAZY!
I finally broke down on Friday night and ordered some maternity clothes. Friday at school I wore some skinny jeans and I was absolutely MISERABLE (even with a hair tie holding the button/fastener together). I'm pretty sure it put me in a bad mood. So, I will soon be a maternity pants wearing lady. I'm holding out on shirts for a while because I usually wear my shirts pretty big anyway and they still fit for now :).
My students are so interested in Millie! It is so fun! I was very sick at school on Wednesday (throwing up.. I think either a bug or something I ate) and they kept asking if Millie was okay. Carter even said, "What if when you threw up in the trash can Millie came out?!?" BLESS HIM :) I'll save that explanation for you, Kylie Moad :).
Since we found out we are having a little girl, I have become mildly obsessed with making bows and headbands! I can't stop! I decided it'd be cheaper for me to make a few myself instead of spending $10-12 each plus shipping from etsy ;)
We've been busy bees getting things together for the nursery :). Ben finally let me order Millie's bedding! So excited, but it won't be in until the middle of November. We have also decided on a color to pain the nursery. Last weekend we got the crib finished after three weeks of hard work! I am very pleased with the end result! It matches the changing table perfectly!
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One of the fun fabrics in Millie's bedding!
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Let the next 20 weeks begin!!!
Friday, September 20, 2013
Going on 18 weeks....
It is still very hard for me to believe I am pregnant. Thankfully, now, if I forget, I have a small "baby bump" to remind me!
We found out last Monday we are having a GIRL! I am honestly sooooo thrilled, and I knew a girl was what Ben was hoping for (me too, maybe just a little).
We have an official name for our baby girl- Millie Everett Willard.
I am currently 17 weeks pregnant (will be 18 on Monday). I have taken a few "bump" pictures but in this week's you can actually see her poking her way through!
My pants still fit-as of today. They are starting to get slightly uncomfortable, though.
My shirts fit in my BELLY area, but are SUPER tight on my CHEST.. gerrrr!
Of course, it has been extremely difficult not to spend every extra penny we have on Miss Millie because there are SO many cute baby girl clothes out there and we all know I LOVE to shop!!! I have gotten her a FEW things, though. :) I have her nursery all mapped out in my mind. I found this awesome site called lullaby paints (they are nursery safe) and will be painting her crib on my own! I am so excited and hope it turns out as planned! I have the bedding sitting in my etsy cart waiting for Ben's okay- ha!
Ben's mom told us Dillard's was having a big summer sale so we went last night to see if we could find Millie anything. Ben looked like a kid in a candy store holding up outfit after outfit. He was tearing up within the first 5 minutes. Then he said, "I just don't know if I can do this emotionally. It's all so cute." That just shows how excited he is, and that she truly already has him wrapped around her finger!
Dawn Hellard (the most amazing person in the world) has been doing ultra sounds for me since my doctor only does one at 20 weeks. I got to go see Millie yesterday and she is quite the wiggle bottom!!! She was doing front and side flips the entire time we watched her! I seriously love seeing her. She has already grown so much since last week! I'm trying to savor every little second of being pregnant (thankfully I'm finally in my second trimester and have my energy back!!!--yeahhh), but it is so hard not to just long to hold her and see her tiny little hands and feet externally!
My doctor gave me the OKAY to switch to the gummie prenatal vitamins (even though they don't have the iron needed) since the others had been making me SO sick. I will switch to prescription ones when I get to my third trimester---so I get the iron I need to help my blood clot during delivery!
Thank you, Lord for this healthy baby girl growing inside of me. I know she is truly a gift from You. I pray she will have a heart that seeks You at an early age, and that she longs to glorify Your name in all she does.
We found out last Monday we are having a GIRL! I am honestly sooooo thrilled, and I knew a girl was what Ben was hoping for (me too, maybe just a little).
We have an official name for our baby girl- Millie Everett Willard.
I am currently 17 weeks pregnant (will be 18 on Monday). I have taken a few "bump" pictures but in this week's you can actually see her poking her way through!
My pants still fit-as of today. They are starting to get slightly uncomfortable, though.
My shirts fit in my BELLY area, but are SUPER tight on my CHEST.. gerrrr!
Of course, it has been extremely difficult not to spend every extra penny we have on Miss Millie because there are SO many cute baby girl clothes out there and we all know I LOVE to shop!!! I have gotten her a FEW things, though. :) I have her nursery all mapped out in my mind. I found this awesome site called lullaby paints (they are nursery safe) and will be painting her crib on my own! I am so excited and hope it turns out as planned! I have the bedding sitting in my etsy cart waiting for Ben's okay- ha!
Ben's mom told us Dillard's was having a big summer sale so we went last night to see if we could find Millie anything. Ben looked like a kid in a candy store holding up outfit after outfit. He was tearing up within the first 5 minutes. Then he said, "I just don't know if I can do this emotionally. It's all so cute." That just shows how excited he is, and that she truly already has him wrapped around her finger!
Dawn Hellard (the most amazing person in the world) has been doing ultra sounds for me since my doctor only does one at 20 weeks. I got to go see Millie yesterday and she is quite the wiggle bottom!!! She was doing front and side flips the entire time we watched her! I seriously love seeing her. She has already grown so much since last week! I'm trying to savor every little second of being pregnant (thankfully I'm finally in my second trimester and have my energy back!!!--yeahhh), but it is so hard not to just long to hold her and see her tiny little hands and feet externally!
My doctor gave me the OKAY to switch to the gummie prenatal vitamins (even though they don't have the iron needed) since the others had been making me SO sick. I will switch to prescription ones when I get to my third trimester---so I get the iron I need to help my blood clot during delivery!
Thank you, Lord for this healthy baby girl growing inside of me. I know she is truly a gift from You. I pray she will have a heart that seeks You at an early age, and that she longs to glorify Your name in all she does.
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