When Dr. gorman told me on Monday that I hadn't progressed I was immediately heartbroken. ha. but then he said... okay come check in tonight at 5.. WHAAAT!!! I don't think I really believed what I had heard.
I rushed home so I could get in some extra millie time, finish packing, and so fix my hair because it was disgusting. Ben got home around 3.... we played with Millie, and then we headed to the hospital around 4:30
After we checked in I started keeping notes in my phone (which later some how got deleted but I was able to recover them after crying about it for two days).. because I knew there was no way I would remember all the details I wanted to.
Here are my notes with some added details
5:00 pm- check in
Tried an IV in four places. Kept popping out. finally put one in arm crease (super uncomfortable and kept making the machine go off every time i moved)
-mom came by
-ben went to grab us stonemill---he bought every kind of cookie they had because he couldn't remember what kind i usually order. WIN WIN
6:30- first cytotec dose
7- page got there to be my nurse! woo hoo
-Meredith, Andrew, & Claire come visit
-Don & Tinka come visit
7:35- started feeling cramps
8ish- page redid my IV in my left wrist. so much better
-using the restroom about every 20 minutes
-cramps/contractions were pretty uncomfortable at this point.. I almost asked for the epidural but I wanted to still be able to walk to the bathroom
12 am- gave me heart burn medicine because I was feeling super nauseous
12:15- check-no change- still 2 cm
-2nd dose of cytotec
-dose of Nubian (knocked me out immediately.. i remember laying my head on the pillow and my eyes closed without me meaning for them to)...Ben and mom witnessed me laughing hysterically, crying, saying crazy things like "hide the vodka that's by the microwave" "get the basket of apples" "wiggle wiggle wiggle"..
-got up to potty at 1:40, 2:30, and 3:15 but it was such good sleep while I was sleeping to keep me from being up all night with the cramps/contractions
4:50--the dr. was about to start making his rounds so they had him come in to give me the epidural--surprisingly it did not hurt like i remember with millie..
6:00 am--check--barely a 3
7:20- dr. partridge broke my water
9:27-- i told the nurse I felt like I needed to poop-- she checked me-- 6cm!
9:51--felt like i needed to poop again (that's the only way I could describe it haha)-- check-she said "well you probably do need to poop because you're complete. 10 cm!
-she said let's do a practice push while we wait on Dr. Partridge to get back in. then she said "oh yep.. I see his hair! it's pretty dark.. I remember saying "huh.. you're not serious"
-about 25 minutes later Dr. P gets back in
-she said okay jamie i want you to do really big deep pushes and he will be here so fast!
first push--..she said okay there's the head
second push--okay keep pushing lets get this shoulder out
third push--push through almost there
fourth push--10:35---jamie look down here! and he was completely out!!!! I remember distinctly the nurse saying "write it down 10:35 am"
-the whole time i was pushing i remember thinking of my goodness am i ripping apart?! and i kept trying not to look up where the tv was because I could see the reflection and i thought i might faint ha..
then when she told me to look up I saw some super chubby cheeks then saw his boy parts :)... i let out the biggest wail without realizing it.... i just started crying uncontrollably and looked up at ben and we both lost it. they laid him on my chest (i thought he was going to slip off) and i just kept saying hey baby boy hey!!! oh my goodness! hey!!! and cried all over him!
SO. MUCH. HAIR... dark hair. my absolute dream...
Ramsey you barely even cried...it was the sweetest little screech cry I had ever heard!!! oh my goodness you were so sweet --(even when the nurse was giving you your bath and doing your measurements you didn't make a sound!!)
-luckily i had a newborn gown and a 0-3 because the newborn one wouldn't fit you... the hat I brought was too tight--i tore it trying to stretch it before putting it on your head :)
You got to stay in the room with us the whole day and night!!! it was amazing.. I didn't want to share you with anyone because I knew the time of just me you and your daddy was so very limited..
We had so many sweet visitors that were ready to meet you! Your sister got to come meet you around 6. it took her a few minutes to warm up to you but then she couldn't get enough and just wanted to hold you and kiss you and pinky promise you the whole time!!! Our hearts had never been so full!
The first time the nurses took me to the bathroom I literally laughed out loud when i looked at the sink and saw all of the "care products".. then i said "isn't Jesus so funny. He let me forget all about all this fun stuff just so I would have another baby" ;)
I wanted to hold you all night long. I was afraid to put you in the bassinet. I don't even think i ever went to sleep!!!
The next day was a little rocky... we were supposed to get checked out by lunch time.. unfortunately your circumcision didn't go as planned---- the details literally made me have to get out of bed to go throw up... but we will see a urologist at children's on August 25 to get it scheduled with him :)
We love you... I couldn't believe how big of a baby you were (well actually i could because i guessed you would be at least 9 pounds from how big my belly was)... I never met a sweeter baby in my life. You didn't make a peep the whole time we were at the hospital. I was so amazed. Your chunky cheeks, lips, and all your hair are some of my favorite parts!!!